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| Learning to Be Alone in Him [Taken from my Facebook note] |
Current status: "Ashley is taking a week off to be alone with her Father. She'll be unavailable for pretty much anything until next Saturday's sundown, but she'll see you at church!"
I'm writing this to let you guys know why I'm not going to 'be around' this week... So you don't think I'm just becoming a big, anti-social turd.
It's not a big secret to anyone that Ashley doesn't 'not do'... ever. She's always out with someone (usually several someones) doing something... and then another something, and then another something after that! ...The only places she's ever alone are her bedroom and her bathroom... because until she's married, those are sortof one-person places... ...and she usually doesn't even make it to bed until 4-5 in the morning!
Acouple weeks ago, a friend of mine sorta presented this to me, "If the day came when you couldn't see your friends or family anymore, would you be able to be happy?" Got me thinking... Would I be happy... or would I lose my mind? Is it enough for me to be alone with God, not surrounded by everyone else?
I spent some time thinking/talking/praying about it... and came to the conclusion (if you can call it an official conclusion, since it wasn't really all that conclusive, but sortof just a decision) that God gave me a passion for people... Jesus' ministry was people... I have my 'alone time' with God praying and praising Him... reading His word, writing Him songs, etc... What more did I need to do? It seemed like I had it all together fine. Why would I need to learn to be happy away from people... since I know it's God's plan to USE me in the way of people? So that idea sorta fizzled out, and I went on with my busy, always doing, never stopping life of excitement...
Wednesday night at Tribe (this awesome college Bible study/worship time... Ask me about it! You should come!), I was incredibly distracted by people... Just thoughts of people, completely distracting from my personal worship, learning, etc. I guess we could say that God used that to impress this back on me... I don't know how to be alone with God. I dont know for sure that I would be happy just being alone with God. He told me it's time to find out...
Yes, Jesus' ministry was people, but even He took time to just get away to be alone with His Father. Also, in the past when I've been in 'romantic relationships', I wanted to spend time alone with that person... No, not necessarily 'forsaking all others', but it was really nice to go out on dates alone sometimes or just spend time in eachother's company, involved in intimate conversation we just didn't get to talk about when everyone else was around... The little stuff, the big stuff... Just stuff* in their presense... That's how it is with God... He's IN LOVE WITH US! Of course He wants to be our #1! In my past relationships, I dare say that I could have ended up on a deserted island with only that person for the rest of my life and been MORE than content... been ecstatic even! Not that it would ever happen (or even that I'd want it to), but if it did, things would be awesome. ...And of course the idea of a week-long vacation with them was more than enticing... It should be that way with God! That's what this week's about... Learning to LOVE just being alone with Him... Yes, my vacation with God.
To be perfectly honest, I'm not thrilled about it... I want to go out with my friends... I want lunch out after church, movie nights, and days at the pool/lake... I want to have 'intellectual' conversations and and and and just BE with my friends and family... All this goes to say that this is something I NEED to do... because I should be thrilled about it. I should be THRILLED to get a week completely devoted to me and my God. I know He's going to teach me some awesome stuff this week, so I'm excited about THAT... just not the week in general. I know there are going to be alot of opportunities to not follow through on this... Even today already there were 2 (and the sun's only been down for an hour)! ...So needless to say, please keep me in your prayers!
...Ohh, and if you guys need any prayer or have some to pass along to me, I'll have plenty of time to pray for whatever it is (no matter how small), so let me know what I can pray for!By: Ashley Marie Category: Jesus as Praying: Taking time alone with God (1) Comments |
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